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No more tuition!! Stuck back to the cycle!!!

chialoon — Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:22:43 +0000

I had some unpleasant experience with this tuition centre at hougang
Regarding the principle… haiz. Since you are like that. there is no point for me to stay on.
Work hard arh Kids!!!

23/9
I receive my GPA for the first sem in NYP
1.56 HAHA!!
I think there is huge room for improvement
Next sem i am going to score!!
Since there is only 1 maths module!!
No wonder Miss sheila will come speak to me…
NO Choice what do u expect??? i aces meh!
I tried my best Already!!
Material sci D+
Engineering maths D
Chemical engineering principle D
Inorganic & Physical chemistry C

Tuition teacher for kids.

chialoon — Fri, 16 Sep 2011 11:02:41 +0000

I took up a job.
currently because the time table for sem 2 had not release
i cannot negotiate with the centre manager
so… I’m currently a temp staff in the centre
coaching Primary school student in their academic
dunnoe whether i’m up for the task
but it is a brand new experience
i’m super duper excited!!!!
Report to work on monday

Sense of belonging

chialoon — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 09:23:34 +0000

As the days goes by… i’m feeling really tired
i felt mentally tiredness in me
Why ? Why ?
I dont feel any sense of belonging
The words you said often hurts me deeply
Not just onces… but many many times…
I feel like a rotten apple
maybe i should rot away quietly with my life

Sad… Trust… Betrayal…

chialoon — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 09:20:08 +0000

I’m very sad, i does not feel good at all… Why dont you understand me??
Onces a person did a bad things
THAT person will always rmb the bad things he/she did
INSTEAD of the good things they did…
Why just you trust me ????
Should i really revert back to the old ways??
Or continue this way
Since nobody do really trust me…
I am really sad… really sad…

Thank you my friends, lecturer!! :)

chialoon — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 14:57:54 +0000

Thanks a alot for helping me through this sem 1 in my route of diploma
i hope that i din not annoyed you with my questions
Thanks zhang xiao for teaching me maths as well as pei zheng
Thanks soon huat for coaching me CEP whenever i face difficulty as well as zhixiang
Thank You guys
I truly enjoy this learning journey

Attitude… Life goals, Direction

chialoon — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 17:13:36 +0000

Actually what makes u think that my attitude is not right ???
i’m most willingly to learn, to progress as i grow…
Its just that… somehow it serve no purpose
Do you understand me??
Do you understand the struggle i met??
Do you understand everything??
Do you really actually understand how tedious it was for me to keep up
The fact is you dont understand… Talking bullshit…
Being in ITE for 4 yrs… every sad exp i had been thru
quarreling wif mum due to misunderstanding
being look down by society
i understand every single things going on…
But do you??? its very sad that no one understand…
How i wish i that someone could appear that i could talk to all day long would understand what are the things happening in my life
I just dont want to be rude. haiz
i hate myself that i could only progress just a little bit.
Maybe your expectation for me is alittle higher
For me, i know it myself
I already did my best… i dont wish to score well… just don let me retake my modules.

Today it was a happy day… A joyful day… but no one i could approach to share my joy…

Sem1 in NYP

chialoon — Fri, 09 Sep 2011 05:18:26 +0000

This is super late i know
Academic Stuff
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been in NYP for 1 sem already
Exams its already over now is waiting for the results
i dont wish to retake any module omg!!!!!
i dont wish to score well, just don let me retake my module i’m much happy already!!!
Made quite no. of new friends throughout the sem1
although poly life is somehow stressful but then
i still love it… i would cherish this chance.
this chance i had been waiting for 4 years!!!!!!!! Haiz

Personal Stuff
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sometimes i dont wish to think about this
a 20 yr old guy still pursueing his diploma somemore still in year1
whereas i see my peers around my age or rather people around me
Some in Year3 going to graduate soon
Some already graduated enrolling NS
Some of them are doing good in yr2
Some are ord-ed pursueing their private dip.
I wish that you could at least be abit more understanding towards me
do you think i want to be like this ??
i have no choice…
At certain point of time i wish to give up, i find it no purpose
but then due to the reality i keep hanging to it
Hopefully everythings goes well…

New Class,New adventure,New FRIENDS!! NEW REPORTS

chialoon — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 03:35:18 +0000

Alright this is my new adventure updates
Being a Vice-class rep in class
the job scope was somehow easier compared to class rep in ITE
whereby we don have to take attendance at all
which is a awesome thing to do !!

Met a number of people … different kind
from each year to each year
in my days in ITE
i learn quite no. of lifeskills to mingle with them
so i had no problem in “entering their world” hahas
The learning culture wise??
it was somehow fast pace learning compared to ITE style
whereby lecturers bombard students with theories
and when the times u figured out the theories… you had to go for the next lesson again. which is somehow good in the sense whereby time goes faster
Still trying to adapt to the fast pace learning
I will cherish this opportunity

New life,new environment

chialoon — Fri, 08 Apr 2011 12:26:54 +0000

This is begining of my start of new life
i came so far took me 4 years…
i will appreciate it…

Feelings & Expectations

chialoon — Thu, 31 Mar 2011 16:51:58 +0000

The feeling is weird.
Being confidence to handle stuff is one of my virtue
But if i tell you my confidence level break this time round do you believe me?
If i tell you that i’m actually really sad within me? will you believe me?
That’s all about it
Sometimes i wondered to myself, Why am i embarking on this biotechnology route or as a food technologist route.
Is under someone’s shadow?
Or i living to someone elses expectations?
Shall See later evenings posting.
I had a bad feeling afterall . . .